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Expressive, Emotive, Honest.
Thursday, May 2, 2013 5:51 AM Guess I'm blogging again? ♥ SO , Diyanah told me that she stalked me once which my last post was 2 years ago . HAHAHAHA CHRONIC SIAL TYPING OMG i am darn embarrassed .. Though it's okay .. I've learnt to type better, in a more ... civilized manner . Hahahaha . And so i thought that blogging wouldn't be such a bad idea after all , since recently I have been having difficulty trying to figure out a place for me to drown my sorrow . Have you ever felt like suddenly , everything crashes down on you ? Like there was no one around you , to be there for you . I don't mean physically , i mean like in a sense where you can't trust anyone and all you have is , YOURSELF . At the age of 16 , I'm already feeling exhausted of life . Is this how it was supposed to feel like ? Or am i the awkward one ? So many things have happened for the past 2 years . Those i claim my " Bestfriends " back then are now just .. Friends . Lesson learnt : Everybody Will Change . It's just that we do not know when , where , how or why . I've learnt to just go with the flow . There is always a reason behind whatever that has been happening . " Friends Come & Go . Family Don't " - My Sister We all know there's some truth behind what my sister said . No matter how much you keep claiming that you HATE your family , you know there's nowhere else more comfortable than what you call 'Home' . Despite all the setbacks for the past few years , there's a very important value i've learnt to cherish which is the people who stayed throughout your ups and downs . Appreciate them while you can , before it's too late , when there's no point in uttering words of regret . I have got to agree that i;ve changed drastically though . I became a little more ignorant because i felt Tired . Tired of caring too much , yet nothing works out just the way you want it to be . So , remember how i mentioned that i have learnt to ' go with the flow ' ? I was too tired to try . When i try , it has never been sufficient . Now , i TRY when it's worth it . I don't really say much about what has been going through my mind . But trust me , A LOT of things i think about at every point in a day ... though i know nothing much can be done to change anything . I have never wanted anyone as much as i wanted YOU in my life , but you come and go at many times .. i wonder if you're ever going to stay in my life . I admit , i'm obsessed and it hurts how we haven't been talking now .. Honestly , i tried . Remember how i called you a couple of times to check on what you're up to after the day i bailed on you ? Your reply was just , cold . My hopes crashed to pieces . Have you wondered how long i took to gather my courage ? I have NEVER tried this hard because i've always put my pride first before anything else . Remember those late night conversations , over the phone , wake up calls , random calls , weird messages ? It meant alot to me . Everytime i get so insecure thinking if i would ever be good enough for you . Insecure of the gorgeous girls you talk to . I kept thinking of the chances being with you . I wish to make everything up to you . But, I don't have enough courage to even text you . I'm dying to talk to you but , is it the same for you ? What if i'm annoying the hell out of you ? Enough for tonight . Goodnight . AF ♥	It's Impossible, I am who i am. I don't see a need for me to act like somebody else to be happy, i blog to express Glorious day every 0309, since 1997. Currently in Woodgrove secondary <3. Loving my babies , ♥4Express3♥ Insta : @RaiKxtty Twitter : @RaiKxttyPerry I'm in lovewith "?" I'm in lovewith Sarcasm & Ignorance . And, abit of Annoyance. They're famous, like obviously you'll know who they are I'm a die-hard fan of White, Pink and Purple. Not much of Black. Chocolate and Cheese are my two best friends, they're always by my side whenever I need them. My greatest enemies are Liar, Backstabber, Hypocrite and Nag. I hate them alot. World would be such a better place without them all. For I have many secrets to tell you. That I am ; Pink ranger by the day \| Veronica Mars at night \| and I am Raifana since I was born. I'm your heroine. With Loves, Elmo Spongebob ILOVE AF ♥Serena♥ ♥AliahSyazana♥ ♥Wannadiah♥ ♥Jingmin♥ ♥Sofifi♥ ♥Diyanah♥ ♥Megawati♥ ♥Phoebe♥ ♥4Express3 Babies♥ Materialistic, Click for my wishlist!
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