Saturday, May 11, 2013 11:56 AM

Nothing stays the same .

♥Hi people !

Ok so Saturday was great i suppose :) met my homies at town and with manisah to teman me on the way home hmmmm and it ended off .... Pretty well with an on the phone session with qt ☺

But yknow , i feel ...... Like everything's different now . Though after the really tough period when i felt like i was losing him , he came back . We started talking progressively . But ..... It doesn't feel the same . The on the phone session was great . But the excitement i used to feel when i see his name appearing on my phone ..... Depleted . I don't wanna make myself seem too needy or clingy but i just needed an assurance . How was i supposed to know if he wants me to keep trying or he doesn't care . What if he layan me out of sympathy ? A million things went through my mind but hey .... I don't have enough courage to say it out. What if he thinks i'm crazy ? I'm out of my mind to think that a charming super adorable and mature guy like him would want a girl like me ? Always dwelling on her insecurities and just .. Never good enough .

" why won't you move on ? " " there's sooo many other guys out there ? Why hurt yourself ? "

Oh no hunn . You people know nothing . He's not typical . He taught me how to pull myself back from the person i really really want . He taught me so many valuable lessons . Although now , i don't even know what kind of state we're in . 5 months .... And i'm still clueless . Aliff would u enlighten me please ? I just need u to tell me so that i would freaking understand .

Other than that , i think i'm okay with my life now . I have a feeling that i've changed . I'm become more ignorant . I don't really care anymore about what anyone has to say about me .

Alright sweethearts :) that's all for now .
Goodnight xx

AF <3